OK the title of the blog is that because i didn't know what else to call it that didn't contain expletives .
I've either done something really clever or I've been really stupid I don't know which. I spoke to my boss about the ongoing issue i am having at work at the moment and basically said to her that either it gets sorted out or i'm going elsewhere.
Why have i done this you might ask ?
Well here are my reasons, firstly I cannot go on the way I am. Secondly, for the first time in a while I am seriously considering cutting ( cos God knows i need the release) - it's really making me feel bad. And thirdly, i know my boss doesn't want me to go, but i need to force her hand a little or nothing will ever change and really i don't want to leave as i like my job and i think i'm quite good at it.
The bottom line here for me is that i'm sat here with all the negative thoughts about myself and the reality is i'm worth more than that. See how easy that was to say ?? If only i could convince myself.
Now I will bid you farewell while i go and use the shower and cry in peace.
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- Ann Marie
- Very slowly learning to live life. Some days are better than others. But I have some great friends who I've met along the way. I tend to bury myself in work as a great way to escape the reality that is my life
2 comments:
You are worth loads!
Maybe this poem by Russell Kelfer might uplift you, it did me.
You are who you are for a reason.
You're part of an intricate plan.
You're a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knit you together within the womb,
You're just what he wanted to make.
The parents you had were the ones he chose,
And no matter how you may feel,
They were custom designed with God's plan in mind,
And the bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you faced was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
So that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are, beloved,
Because there is a God!
Keep smiling xx
great poem nat! x, i know just what u are going through a little, im the only full timer in my bank and basically been left to do everything , there are hardly any staff and lately me and my manager are not seeing eye to eye as i have spoken (as i had to for my own sanity) to my boss before and nothing has been done, now i have been told i am being transferred to another branch which is kinda good cause i get away from there but bad as it a little far and have to travel, and im not very good with change , affects my nerves alot lol, so i have now had enough and my boss is annoyed i think as i now ill and have had to take today and tomorrow and possibly thursday off , which i NVER take when she had the 4 days off last week for the same thing. so i applied for a job within the area as wont be for long as my dad will be here soon and we will all move on , like u , i know God seen i had to get out of there but ,whether to go elsewhere i dunno so i applied and i just gonna see what God brings me , if nothing comes of it while i apply then i know God wants me in this new branch. i know how the stress can get to you and bring you down , but God has a much better plan for you and will set you free from this x
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