Long time no blog

Well it's been a while since I blogged and going by my state of mind just at the moment I probably shouldn't blog now but I will anyway.

So what's been happening ? Well firstly I split up with Michael, it was all my doing and at the time I felt an instant relief but afterward I felt like a complete bitch. I had to do what was right for me and it wasn't being with him.

Recently things have been pretty crap at work and it looks like I will be starting over again with another company. I am still undecided if this is the way forward for me or should I be trying a new job or new direction - today I can't make that decision as my head is all over the place and some of the old fears and feelings are showing their ugly heads. Will they ever go away? I'm beginning to doubt it.

Christmas is just a matter of days away and I'm spending it with the family another brave if not stupid move on my part but only time will tell. Am I strong enough to spend time in dad's company ? again I'm not sure. At least by spending Christmas day with them I will get to see the kids which is good.