Well, it's been a while and a lot has gone on. I have to say that for the first time in a very long time I can finally see some healing taking place.
Me the girl who swore blind that she would never date has been out on a date and even more surprising is the fact that I didn't scare him off, I didn't come across as totally screwed up and we are actually going to have a 2nd date this weekend.
Also I have further good news....
My uncle was diagnosed with throat cancer just before Christmas and last week he was given the all clear (Thanks God)
My middle sister is also pregnant so in the space of 3 months I'll have 2 new nieces or nephews to join the little angel known as Callum.
The question is how far have I come ?
Well if I answer honestly and without embarrassment I've come further than I ever imagined possible. The dark days still occur but no where near as often and I look at them in a different way now. It's taken a lot of hard work and many, many tears but at last I can see more clearly.
God really does know all, and even when you can't or don't want to turn to Him, He puts people in your path to help you along the way.
Very slowly learning to live life. Some days are better than others. But I have some great friends who I've met along the way. I tend to bury myself in work as a great way to escape the reality that is my life